what if im drunk n freak out n cry or scream or spaz like that. in two weeks im going back there and im sure im guna see him, what do i do. and then two weeks later he changed his profile picture to him his girlfriend and me and its been like that since, now its march what the #$, so he totally #$ with my head. he msged me on facebook some lie said he fell alseep that night, i was all made. i was still confused and crying when i was by myself feeling gross. n even though i was acting like this, flirting n chacing n playing all these games, loving that aspect of it. when i came back upstairs he locked me out, i banged on the door like an idiot chucking things at the door n whining to him to open in nothing, i was begging. that night, i got all wasted for this, for him. i wanted to sleep with him the night just before i left, keep me in his head before i left christmas vacation, so i was in his room n he told me to go check soemthing and come back fast. i mean this was the same uncle that i wanted to be like n looked up too n i thought really cared about me. in near days following he would tell me it was time for me to go home n just stuff like that they just made me feel #5. the second time i was too drunk to remember at all almost, and the last time he was way more drunk n i let the sex get completely out of hand, that next day thats when i seen him look at me like i was filth. now i went back to his house this past christmas, this is when he made the first advance on me after a long night of treating for drinks i was pretty drunk. my mum n dad split when i was a child after that had little to no communication with his family until a couple of years ago while i was 16. my uncle and i never grew up close but we got along. So over this past Christmas i had sex with my uncle a few times.